I want to sink my lips into unforgiving flesh and leave my prints against your glass.
This is the side of myself I don't let you see, the girl who shoved her fingers into ash and came to the surface smelling like her father. I'm not the one who cries and I don't bite my lips until they bleed. And I'll only hold your hand if you kiss me on empty subway cars at two in the morning, and even then I'll keep you at arms length, arms length.
It's a pun, and puns aren't funny, but neither are my stretch marks or your scars, demons we hide behind diaphanous prose on nights marked by tomato soup skies, when we are unable to comprehend our own nudity. Once, you were danger, and I'm dancing with it, only you don't dance and I don't do drugs. I'm talking about danger, about sex and death, and this is the Chicago I don't address anymore.
And that's why you don't need to chainsmoke when we meet, baby.
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